Still waiting

Waiting has always been an inevitable part of my life. It's an inevitable part of anybody's life really, so there's no surprise that I'm continually waiting for the things I want.

When I was younger I had to learn to wait for the small things in life. Of course at that time the small things were in fact the big things as far as I was concerned. I remember waiting all day at primary school for the lunch bell to ring so I could then patiently wait in the tuckshop line to buy my favourite apricot balls. Do you remember apricot balls? As far as I was concerned they were the best thing at the tuckshop, and that was quite possibly linked to the fact they were 5c and I could always afford them.

As I got older there was a lot more waiting in lines for things I wanted. At McDonalds on my lunch break, Kmart and even at the movies {remember when we used to go to the movies all the time, before it became a ridiculously expensive outing?}. Although I swear I had a talent for picking the slowest line every single time without fail, each time I could see the end of the line. I knew I would get what I wanted and I could anticipate just how far away I was from getting it.

Fast forward to trying for a baby, while the waiting on the surface was the same, it was inherently different. This time I knew what I wanted and I knew I had to wait, but I had to wait in an invisible line with an invisible end point. For four years before bub was conceived I waited in that invisible line hoping to get to the end and get what I wanted, and eventually I did. For the past 17 months I've been waiting in the same invisible line hoping to once again get to the end and get what I want.

A few months ago I wrote about how I believed if I was patient I'd eventually get what I wanted. I've waited patiently for months, and I still have to wait for many more, but now it's different. For the next 7 months I have to wait, but I can see the end of the line and I know I'll get what I want. I've waited for almost a year and a half for our next baby and in 7 months time I know I'm going to meet them. This time I'm happy to wait and I'm not willing those months to fly by, I want to live in the moment and experience it all. I want to soak it all in and appreciate this period of waiting, because I don't know if I'll ever get to experience it again.