Sunday, May 11, 2014

My first Mother's Day



For so many years I thought this day would never come.

Well, I knew May 11th 2014 would come, but I never thought it would be my first Mother's Day.

I am so grateful that this year I am finally a mum on Mother's Day.

When I was younger I remember being jealous that my mum and dad got special days (and presents) on top of their birthday and Christmas. I never understood why they got an extra day to celebrate when us kids didn't.  It didn't seem fair to me.

As an adult for a fair few years I resented Mother's Day. It was a reminder of my failure and inability to do the one simple (not so simple) thing a woman should be able to do - have a baby. I resented all the women who got to celebrate with their children. I wanted to be them. I resented working in retail and selling Mother's Day gifts. It was a daily reminder that there was a big party happening that I wasn't invited to.

This year it's amazing. I finally feel like I'm invited to the party. For me it's not about getting gifts, it's about feeling included. I feel like I belong to an elite club. I am finally allowed to join in the festivities, the celebration and the excitement.

But for me, Mother's Day is not about celebrating me, its about my daughter.

Without her I wouldn't be a mum. Without her I wouldn't be as deliriously happy as I am. Without her I wouldn't get to experience reciprocal, unconditional love everyday. I wouldn't go to bed content after snuggly cuddles. And I wouldn't get to hear that magical word "Mum" each day.



So, today I say thankyou to my daughter, for picking me to be her mummy.


Toni xx


Linking with Zanni Louise for Sunshine Sundays



18 comments:

  1. Such an honour isn't it - being a mum, have a great first Mother's Day with lots more fun ones ahead!

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  2. I hope you've had a great day Toni xx

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  3. Lovely Toni! Happy mother's day hun, and thanks for linking up! xx

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    1. Hope you had a good day too Zanni

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  4. Hope your first Mother's Day has been glorious Toni x

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    1. It was pretty good, maybe not glorious but only because daddy was working so we couldn't do anything as a family.

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  5. Happy first Mother's Day Toni, what an incredible milestone it is! Here's to many, many more to come :)

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    1. I can't wait til she can make the handmade cards :)

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