As a mum I think its natural to want to show off your kids as often as possible. To share cute pictures and talk about what they're up to. Sometimes to the point where people are sick of it, but they'll still indulge you by pretending to be entertained by your latest poo explosion story. I'm no exception to this - I share and sometimes over share about my life everyday. I guess its a requirement of a personal blogger.
Every now and then though I second guess myself. I don't mind sharing my life story. It doesn't bother me if people know about my childhood or my inner thoughts. If it did, I wouldn't have a blog at all. What I do think about though is whether I'm doing the right thing putting photos of my daughter on my blog.
The whole purpose of my blog is to record my memories. To have a place to look back on everything that's happened. A place where I can go to re-live the important times of my life later on, when the memories have succumb to time and faded away. More importantly its a place where she can go and know for certain how much I love her and how much I care about her (if she should ever doubt it). I wish I had that now, I wish I could have an insight into what my mum was thinking when I was a baby. I wish I had our time together written down because I only remember being at school, babysitters and grandparents. While that won't be the case for my daughter, I still want to create a place for her where she can access these special moments whenever she wants to. In doing that it's unavoidable that I will share photos of her and in essence I don't have a problem with that.
I have an innate desire to create a strong memory base for her that will live on. I didn't have many photos from when I was younger so I aim to take as many of her as possible. I know the sadness felt as an adult when there is hardly anything to look back on. My father also died when I was young and over time my memories have faded. His legacy is a cluster of faint memories that live inside my head and a few low quality photos I have on display in my house. I am desperate to leave my own footprint, heaven forbid anything should ever happen to me. I don't want my children to have to go on wondering like I did.
On the flip side, I worry about the internet. I worry about the unsavoury people on the internet. I worry that once photos are on the net anyone has access to them. I worry what they can or might do with my photos, especially the ones of my baby. I worry about whether she will be annoyed at me in the future because I put her face on the internet. I worry that it could somehow come back to haunt her in the future (although I don't really know how). I worry that me sharing our life together will be seen as a negative thing by people. Yes, I am more than likely over thinking it all as usual. I'd like to think people who would do anything like that aren't actually reading my blog.
Whilst I have these worries, my desire to create memories with her and for her outweighs the 'what ifs' of the future. Instead of worrying about what may happen, I'm putting all my energy into the here and now. I still have guilt about it, but in my heart I'm doing what I think is best for my baby. I hope she sees it that way.
Do you ever worry about photos of your children online?