Thursday, December 5, 2013

It's starting to feel like Christmas




When I was a child I eagerly awaited Christmas. From the moment the tree was up we were counting down the days to Santa arriving. We used to leave out milk and cookies and I would stay awake (but pretend to be asleep) for as long as I could on Christmas eve in the hope I would catch a glimpse of Santa. I vividly remember one year I was looking out the window on Christmas eve and I thought I saw Santa's sleigh. I could see red and green flashing lights moving across the sky and mum told me I better go to sleep quickly so Santa would come. I was super excited that night! Obviously what I saw was a plane, but my inner child still secretly likes to believe it was Santa. We had huge Santa sacks that would sit under the tree and Santa would fill them when he came. OMG the excitement when we got up Christmas day and they were bursting full of presents!

A few years later I was captivated by the Christmas lights that everyone would put up in December. There is just something magical about fairy lights. I don't quite know what it is, but I am always drawn to them. You can't help but feel happy when you see them, right? In the later years of primary school I convinced my mum that we should put up Christmas lights on our house too. Each year more and more neighbours would join in and our light displays got bigger and better. I got a bit obsessed with it, to the point of drawing out a picture of our house in November so I could plan the light display (and so mum knew exactly where they all had to go). Our Christmas paraphernalia grew and grew each year (as mum discovered boxing day sales) and we then used to set up our whole front lounge room with lights, decorations and our tree (so you could see it from the street). I would play Christmas cds with the window open so passers by could hear carols as they marvelled at our lights. I was always super excited to go walking around the estate and look at all the other houses that had lights up. One of the neighbours would dress up as Santa and give out lollies. It was pure heaven for a child like me who was addicted to the joy of Christmas.

The last few years I lost my love of Christmas. Working in retail for 13 years straight, being bombarded with Christmas carols, trees, decorations and Santa from September onwards kind of diminishes the specialness excitement of Christmas. Apparently you can have too much of a good thing. I found myself wishing for Christmas to be over so I didn't have to be tortured with carols relentlessly playing on repeat for eight hours each day. It numbs your brain, so much so that I couldn't sleep at night because my mind kept singing "silent night, silent night, all is calm, all is bright......" etc etc. Ironically a silent night is exactly what I was wishing for! I wouldn't put up my tree until the last week of December in some kind of defiant protest against the shops. Although, seeing the perfectly merchandised trees at work each day did make me increasignly ocd about where the tree decorations must go. Putting up the tree became a 1-2hr event because I had to carefully place each baubble in the correct spot or the whole thing would be ruined. The joy had slowly left Christmas. It lost its sparkle and shine, but still inside I desperately hoped that one day I would rekindle my love for it.

This is the year! This year there are so many reasons to look forward to Christmas. It's my first Christmas as a mum, so once again I get to experience the joy as a child, through my daughters eyes. I'm on maternity leave and haven't been bombarded with all things christmas since September. YAY! In fact I forgot it was nearly christmas until November. Ever since I realised it was coming I have been eagerly anticipating December. This year I was desperate to set up the Christmas tree, so much so that I wanted to set it up earlier in November (but I managed to hold off until December). I brought all new decorations for the tree and a new stocking for my beanie baby. I want everything to start fresh this year. Its time to create our own new traditions for our new family. I want to create the joy, anticipation and excitement of christmas for my daughter so she can experience the wonder and magic I did as a child. Shes only going to be 5 months old (exactly) this christmas day so she won't understand a lot of it, but we have started by getting her a special baubble and her own special stocking. I'm sure next year she will understand Christmas a lot more and we can add more traditions to our list.


Special bauble for her birth year :)


Her special Santa stocking

Do you have any special christmas time traditions?



Toni xx


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19 comments:

  1. It's a very funny thing we do, the decorating of the tree ritual. We get a live one in a pot that seems to die every few years, after having grown in a crazy fashion so that visitors feel comfortable enough to comment "Man, that's a weird tree".
    I put on carols to decorate the tree and most of the kids vanish with a 'I'll leave you to it" after humouring me for a few decorations. Still, the youngest is perstering me to go and get the tree, so I've a few years yet - hopefully!

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    1. I've never had a real tree. I would be terrified that some wild animal would jump out of it haha (because I'm a scaredy cat).

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  2. Aww bless how cute, I can imagine I'd get jack of Xmas if I was in retail too! How cool that you had a great lights set up as kids! We have a house down the street of ours and we take the kids to see it every night before Xmas, it enters the council competition so you can imagine how amazing it is. Also an entire bedroom with a train and miniatures set up it's amazing! Our trees are up and I can't wait to get into the Elf on a shelf bandwagon, he arrived today :)

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    1. Oh god yes I was a christmas light nazi! I totally want an elf on the shelf when shes old enough to understand it. They look so cool.

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  3. I think it's really wonderful how having our children reignites our love of Christmas. In between being a child and having my own Christmas was just something to be endured, to get through until normal time again. I worked in hospitality for years so Christmas meant working Christmas day and watching other people make total pigs of themselves and get drunk, no wonder I was turned off it.
    Having kids brought back all the magic, Christmas carols at the school tonight and the oldest is singing in the boys' choir. I can't wait.x

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    1. It doesn't seem to be quite as magical and exciting as an adult. For so many years it was my only day off for the week and the next day was always the busiest day of the year so I totally resented the fact that I had to be out all day - would've preferred to sleep the whole day. It's going to be so weird (but awesome) not working boxing day this year.

      I'm so glad that I'm looking forward to christmas again.

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  4. I love all the Christmas traditions we have - putting up the tree and our advent calendar. Going to Christmas carols and Christmas baking. It's a wonderful time of the year and I'm glad you've recaptured the excitement of it all this year

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    1. Me too and its only going to get better next year once shes old enough to understand it all better.

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  5. Love your fresh perspective on Christmas. I'm excited about Christmas this year too because of kids. Hope it is a super special year for you and your family x

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  6. Kids just make Christmas all that more exciting! I was eager for Dyllan's first Christmas too and I may have gone overboard in the presents department lol. He was only 5 month as well so it was all a bit lost on him.

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    1. OMG Tegan I have gone severely overboard in the present department. I'm going to have to keep some for her birthday its ridiculous. I think I have a problem!

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  7. p.s thanks for linking up with us at The Lounge!

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  8. I remember waiting up for Santa too, I used to always imagine I could hear his footsteps in the hall and I'd lie ultra still in case he realised I was awake!

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  9. So special - your first Christmas as a Mum! Having also worked in retail - as a Christmas casual in a jewellery store - for 5 years, I soooo get where you are coming from about the overdose of Christmas carols!!!

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  10. That's lovely Toni. We were the same when it came to Christmas - we lost the love as adults until we have kids of our own. Now there is wonder again on Christmas morning and we have a reason to decorate and put up lights and enjoy the Christmas cheer. I hope you have a simply lovely Christmas with your little girl this year!

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  11. Love Christmas. It definitely does take on a whole new level of meaning and excitement when you have kids. Of course it also means having to control yourself when the kids are old enough to decorate the tree and you have to sit and smile while your brain screams "WHY ARE YOU PUTTING THAT GREEN BAUBLE RIGHT NEXT TO ANOTHER GREEN BAUBLE? WHERE IS THE SYMMETRY!?!?"

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