Friday, May 31, 2013

The end of an era




So, it is finally here. I officially no longer work. Technically I'm on annual leave for the next two weeks and then on maternity leave, but as of now I definitely don't have to go back to work at least for a year - but more than likely indefinitely. Its a weird feeling. In my head I still think that I'm just going on holidays for a month and then going back.

I've worked every spare day I've had since I was 16, including when I was going to university full time. I've always been responsible for my own income and my own expenses even when I didn't really have to be. I guess its my independent streak. I've always wanted to work and I could never really fathom the idea of sitting at home and not working.

Leaving work didn't go as planned. I was going to work as long as I was legally allowed to (because in my head I needed to make as much money as I could while I was still capable). I was going to have everything organised and pass over my store in pristine condition. Unfortunately, due to my body breaking down on me that didn't happen. My last shift ended up being two weeks ago, I just didn't know it would be my last shift at the time. Nothing was prepared properly for the handover and I didn't have time to say goodbye to my workmates. Completely not what I was expecting to happen. I guess that's the thing with pregnancy, it can be unpredictable. I mean getting pregnant never went to plan, so why would leaving go to plan? I should've expected that.

Nonetheless I'm now somewhat in limbo land. I'm not working and not yet a stay at home mum. I kind of still feel guilty about being at home and not working, yet I'm loving it at the same time. Being at home means I can stay in my pyjamas for the whole day if I want to (thankfully I don't get any random visitors ever). I've also noticed since I don't have to go to work I kind of forget to do my hair and well makeup is completely non existent. Its kind of refreshing not having to get dolled up each day, especially when I'm as big as a whale and feel anything but sexy.

Another good thing about leaving work is that I don't stress over stupid stuff any more. In fact I cant believe the crap that I did stress about. It all seems so trivial now. Oh and I LOVE not having to sit in traffic for up to two hours driving to and from work each day. I have so much more time. I was freaking out that nothing would be done before the baby was born and now I have nothing but time. Its awesome. I'm still not very good at relaxing or doing nothing like I apparently should be (according to the physio), but I'm getting quite good at doing stuff in my pyjamas. So I'm kind of half way there.

The best part is I don't have to work Christmas this year! It will be my first real Christmas and Boxing Day in twelve years! I cant wait. Bring on the next chapter.

Toni x


13 comments:

  1. Enjoy your time off Toni, the more of it you have the better you get at enjoying it, it's addictive ! Being a mum will be great I'm sure, congratulations.

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  2. Congratulations , Toni ! Your next chapter is really bright. so just sit back and enjoy the ride ! Take care of yourself girl.

    Love,
    Shainee
    apieceofshe.blogspot.com

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  3. Toni, work is overrated. Enjoy your baby and your time off.

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    1. I agree work is really overrated.

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  4. Wow, I could have written that post. My advice, enjoy the quiet moments. Read a book. Stay in you pjs. Get a pedicure. Do all off the stuff you want, as soon enough you will not have the time.
    http://iliska-dreams.blogspot.com.au/

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  5. Good luck and just enjoy these last few precious days of alone time, as once baby arrives that all changes. xxx Nikki

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    1. I know its all going to go out the window when she arrives.

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  6. I remember being in your position....11 years ago now. Everyone told me to enjoy the time on my own before bubba arrived...but I just wanted to get on with becoming a mum ASAP...little did I know how precious that time was. Not that I'd have it any other way!!!! Best of luck to you x

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    1. I agree I cant wait to be a mum because ive wanted it for so long, but I also want to enjoy being able to stay in bed while I can.

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  7. Enjoy it big time mate, because you'll be surprised just how quickly a year will go by.

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  8. It depends on perspective, stay home mum can be considered as working. I've been through this before. When my wife continue studying, I have to take care my 5 kids. Yes they are all boys.

    Pergghh, it is really tough. I respected my wife how the handle our kids and also house work.

    Can wait for my wife complete studying.

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  9. Rest up because one the bub arrives you might not sleep for 4 years :)

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  10. I was just thinking today that I should have enjoyed my little limbo land break more myself. I didn't realise until now how amazing that time was. Now I'm halfway through my year off and next year is gonna be crazy with work, kindy drop offs, child care drop offs and somehow keeping up with the house! Argh! Enjoy it while it lasts :)

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