Sunday, March 25, 2012
Be proud of yourself...
I have to admit, I very rarely acknowledge out loud when Im proud of myself. This time however, I am making an exception. This month has been the toughest month of my life (hence no blog posts) and now that it's coming to an end I can finally completely close off that chapter in my life and fully move on.
The last month has been the culmination of everything from the last year and a half. My divorce has gone through so I can finally close the door on "being married" even though in my head I havent been married for ages. I feel like I am no longer his property in any way, shape or form anymore and its so liberating.
I have also finally gone through my property settlement which has brought the most closure! I had to go to court for the first time in my life and it was a very daunting experience. I am not one who likes to be the centre of attention and I hate public speaking so to have to stand up in front of so many people and be the only one talking was like my biggest fear. I literally had nightmares of everything that could go wrong for about two weeks beforehand. However, when the time came I knew there was nobody else who could do it for me so I had to get over my fear and pull myself together and get through it. I had spent hours and hours researching and putting together paperwork in order to bring this about and the outcome was so worth it. In the end I got through it and it wasnt as scary as I thought it would be. It was stressful, but none of my nightmares came true which was a plus. In fact I ended up getting the best possible outcome which was more than I ever thought was possible. I had spent so much time worrying about what could go wrong that I never imagined it might actually go right!
And so after all these months of stress and sleepless nights I have finally come to the end of the road... FINALLY!
It is all over... Im free emotionally and physically.
I am so proud of myself for fighting so hard to get what I wanted despite everything going against me. I believed in myself and a select few other people did too and Im so proud of myself for getting through it and not giving up!
No matter what your going through in your life if theres something you are fighting for and you know you deserve it dont ever give up! If I can do it then so can you.